Im sick...
I just started my new job and so far its been pretty swell.
Have you ever seen that show called The Office. All the things I want to happen are based on that show. So far its been a dissapointment except the random parties. I started on the 1st of June. There has been 3 parties.
What sucks is. I'm lonely. Thats hard to swallow huh? Denise is never lonely, but omg it's true. I havent spoken to any of my high school friends in a while maybe. I havent seen any of my youth group friends either. I want to go out late at night and come home late. I want to be Young and Reckless! but no... just no.
I noticed Ive been really sad since I quit my job in Greenpeace. I guess thats when I realised why Humans hate each other. It because we suck. Its not an individual suckiness, its as a collective we suck. Im one of those people who believe people are awesome, but then meeting the general public made me realise all the hate in the world. Its like that frosted glass that make things blurry, has been shattered to show what ewwy thing is on the other side. In other words my view of the world has now been changed. Its so depressing.
I hate those things. I hate thinking about the future, life, fun, whats going to happen, where Im heading, what Im leaving behind, who is going with me, taxes, death, growing up, adulthood, becoming a contributing part of society, the past.
I remember when we didn't think about those things. Might ask what happened? Life flipping happened. I just wasn't prepared for it. What sucks is, everyone is busy to go through it with me.
